Henry David Thoreau once wrote, "I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately,
to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it
had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived."
I read these words during my senior year of college, when I took a class that forever
changed the way I perceive life...and faith. This class included a heavy reading list
of American writers and as a part of the course; we went on a 3-week whirlwind trip
through the frigid New England area during the middle of January.
On that trip, I walked around Walden Pond, the very place where Thoreau secluded
himself from the world and wrote these words. Seeing the sun set behind the trees
at Walden brought me to a place of simplicity within myself. I, too, wanted to live
deliberately, but I wasn't sure how. After we returned home, my classmates and I
spent countless hours debating what it meant to live deliberately for Christ. Especially
in the materialistic and consumer-driven society that is America.
You see, I was born and raised in a strong Christian home. I grew up loving Jesus
and experiencing first-hand the amazing and mysterious ways God works in our lives.
My family experienced many difficult situations, but God took the bad and used them
to bring about wonderful things. Growing up, my faith was often challenged and tested
by these difficult times, but I always found myself looking to Christ. And He was
always sufficient.
In high school, I was heavily involved in my church's youth group
as a small-group
leader. I was blessed in being trained and taught by a very strong youth pastor
who loved Jesus more than anyone else I've ever known. When I looked at him, I saw
what it meant to be radically alive in Christ.
Then came college and complications. I went to an amazing Christian college where
I met many wonderful Christians. However, I also encountered many people who were
merely doing the "church" thing. Their faith was a casual habit for them, like checking
the mail or listening to the radio. Some of these people were fourth-, fifth-, or
even tenth-generation Christians, but for them, their faith was just one compartment
of their lives. It was mostly separate from everything else they did. They were
content with the American Dream—wealth, security, and above all, comfort.
They'd lived securely in a cloud of Christianity for so long that they didn't notice
that the air had gone stagnant. It frustrated me and puzzled me. Was this faith?
Was this Christianity?
But I knew one thing: I did not want to become like them. I did not want to live
out my life with a mediocre, comfortable faith. At my death, I did not want to discover
that my life had been a waste because I had not really lived for Christ. Thoreau
was not a Christian writer, but when I watched the sun set at Walden Pond, his words
brought me a sense of simplicity in my faith. I had stumbled onto a sort of solution
for my frustration with Americanized Christianity.
I discussed this newfound simplicity with my classmates and friends.
During one
of these conversations, the phrase carpe diem kept popping into my head: "seize
the day." Then I suddenly realized that living deliberately for Christ does not
mean to live my life by the mantra carpe diem but by carpe Deum. "Seize God." Carpe
Deum, Carpe Diem. Seize God, Seize the Day.
This is where I am now. I don't have a solution for the mediocrity I see in many
Christians today. But I am working on living simply, simply by faith. It is not
always easy, but I am trying my utmost to live deliberately for Christ. I am seeking
ways to use my gifts and talents to serve Christ. I am working on living by "carpe
Deum," every single day.
When I die, I want to look back on my life and realize that I DID learn what God
had to teach me, that I served and obeyed Him, and that I had truly lived for Him.
Carpe Deum!